Start to love English

When I say love, I mean like, but it seems love 'sa better word..

For some reasons that may have to do with the structures of my brain, I just can't speak well in Cantonese, my so-called mother tongue.. I couldn't express my feelings that well speaking that language, so I wonder if it is really more like a 2nd language to me..

I have no first language basically..

Believe it or not, it is a better written language.. you have no words to use nowadays, everything is nothing but 搞笑 when you speak Cantonese or shall I say Hongkongese?? but then, as a written language, you can start using your vocabularies again.. and it will even appear more humorous and friendly, and maybe less hypocritical than that language written in the Mainland, partly due to the great powers of ge, ga la, ga le, ga bor, etc.

I don't know why I can't write like what I speak or speak like what I write, and maybe that's the reason why I come to love English. You can write natural and still be making your point and not sound too silly. You don't need to use a lot of tricks to write what would be considered a good piece of writing..

Put it this way, Chinese is much much harder to learn, and I don't have the background.. I want to learn it fast, but I don't know if I can do it, as there are very few good samples to read..

Reading newspaper just won't help.. Rather, it hurts..

Getting sleepy, so just stop here without knowing what I've said..