I think if I keep on talking about that author, you must start to think I am a fool who suddenly idolizes somebody for stupid reasons.. No! It's like I have watched a very, very long film and still can't get out of it, and the story fills my head as it is so dramatic.. Mesmerizing is the world to describe it..
I finally understand why those memoirs are this special.. It is the first time I heard of a man's story in such complete fashion.. It is a shame that I almost know more about his story than my own father's..
Of course I've read some (auto-)biographies before, but none dwells on inner matters as his memoirs did.. It is the author's constant struggle and fight therewith that appeals to me.. It seems that he's always thinking and examining his own conscience.. I do it too, so I understand what he's struggling and striving for.. To make his life more dramatic, he is practically a nobody before 38.. (So I still got many years left.. although I used to set the age limit to 27..)
Definition of nobody: no social identity..
His case drives me to think about myself, and the life picture.. I start to know the way I wanna draw it, only that I don't know how to draw it.. or to be more exact, I still can't start drawing that.. it is so annoying.. I wanna draw the picture starting from this minute, but I have to wait.. FOR NO GOOD REASONS.. That bothers me..
After all, the life is mine, and I have the freedom to keep on struggling for whatever ideal life I desire.. but not to feel satisfied for anything less..
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I am happy that this site doesn't have too many annonymous visitors.. I'm allowed to talk whatever I want, without any danger of exposing myself to those with whom I mind sharing my thoughts.. That's excellent..
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At hall now.. Hopefully, tomolo's a good day.. Recover please! Both psychologically and physically.. Having a flu may be the worst illness to have, when you wanna clear off matter asap..
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