I'm or I'm not joking

I am at war with myself:
A: I want to be a great scholar, great generalist, mastering both science and arts.
B: You're a fraud. You do it because there's nothing else to do.
A: I am true.
B: You aren't.
A: That's what I want to do. At least I'm now serious about arts in general, and linguistcs in particular.
B: If you can do anything, is this your choice?
A: Yes.
B: Imagine that. Would you work this hard, if you can retire tomorrow?
A: ..
B: I know you don't. You're learning things only because you have to.
　 Why would someone love novels if they have something else to enjoy?
A: Novels constitute the best writing in the world.
B: Be honest! What do you like most?!
A: Okay, I'd say, I want to travel a lot. Not in terms of no. of places, but in terms of time.
　 You know, I have a wanderlust. BUT, home is home. And I still want a home.
B: Who do you want to travel with? Alone? Friends? Or some kind of beasts?
A: I'd say with family. Hand-in-hand. That's the happiest thing that I can imagine.
B: Well, you must be day-dreaming.
A: It's night now.
B: Okay, it's getting late. See you next time.
A: I don't want to see you again.
B: You can't. You will see me if you look into a mirror.
A: I will close my eyes.
B: All right, it's time to sleep.

Ha, if this is the so-called inspiration I received from Mr. McCourt,
I'd better let my dreams disappear.
I still haven't lost my wits after all.

But, I find out one thing that I didn't know before.
I just realize that it is the idea of Italo Calvino!! in The Cloven Viscount!! (分成兩半的子爵)
To arrive at truth, you have to split yourself into two extremes, and talk.
Elegant, right?? This guy is a literary genius!!

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I think it's the first time I meet someone with a writer's eye and sensitivity.
To qualify, he has to understand what it means to have a father 51 years older,
and who is from an entirely different culture!!

Yet sometimes, I feel like I'm still my father's son.
I am as good as him. I am just not as bad as him. haha!
Gee! Talking about one's own father is something I learnt this year too~~