知識的盡頭？

One Xangan wrote:

"Life is basically confusing. Why not allow ourselves to be confused by arts then? I don't like the meaning of audience or visitors in an arts museum or gallery..."

I'm confused.. I'm totally confused..

There's a reason not to allow ourselves to be confused by arts..
and THAT REASON is, staying in a state of confusion is hard..

things as precise as science would cause confusion when it isn't done in the proper manner,
let alone arts that have no fixed rules..

it's really time to get a job, just for the sake of getting paid..
it would ease the confusion.. I guess..

I start to agree with 莊子：

吾生也有涯，而知也無涯；以有涯隨無涯，殆矣！
為善無近名，為惡無近刑，緣督以為經。

人生的概要，盡在其中。但概要所不包涵的，所不能顧及的，還是要靠自己找出答案。
Confusion.. Confucius!!

ha.. I am calling Confucius like Jesus..
this I think can also be regarded as a way to translation Jesus: 孔子！

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I have 'Tis and Teacher Man on my back, right??
So how to get out of it??
"Our" states of confusion are so alike..
Does it really have to take so long to overcome whatever inadequacies on your part??

It must be an ecstasy of joy to start a degree program at 23..
with a few more years on the belt, probably it would be much better..
19 is too young.. 22 seems a good age to me..

I hope I can be as tough as this little old mick..
aside from the tongue, the fist, the memory, this is all he has..
and that's already good enough..
I mean toughness alone is good enough..

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the reading of novels could cause so much confusion..
especially when I'm moving to 20th century..
each age has its own problems..
and the problems of the 20th century is so exotic,
more exotic than the previous ages..

can I just believe, 21st century is a new age, that nothing's gonna left over??
of course not!!

Reading 19th century things is for joy, for nostalgia, for an appreciation of the old times..
Reading 20th century things is a way to find out the answer..

I suppose working is also one of the possible answers..
I may as well teach physics asap..
and give up any false hopes of getting a PhD just for the sake of a "better" future..
give up my false hopes of learning languages..
give up my false hopes of learning anything at all.. except learning how to teach..

yet am I prepared enough to enjoy my job??
Com'on, you can't scrape through 30 years like a machine..
one must be able to enjoy the prime.. and that's the point..
after the prime, everything's gone..

False hopes?? why not get them true??
be patient just for another year, can you??

where did I get the nerve that I would ever be able to act like myself??