It has been a while

Things go quite well, and I am quite satisfied, so I have less ambitions and emotions to share.
The Taiwan trip gives me a real break in what? 2.5 years?
I love Taiwan. It can as well be the most habitable Chinese place on the Earth.
Yet who doesn't love his hometown? I hate it, because I love it.
I am not totally anti-modern, so in my mind,
those rural parts of China aren't really that attractive..

Anyway, there're a lot to do in the next 1.5 months.

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Intrinsically, I am still a scientist that is always thinking and criticizing.
I don't trust authority unless you're close to the smartest that are both broad and deep.
So, when the so-called translation theorists propose anything,
I always think I can do it better, because their methods aren't that systematic..

Yet people tend to think that they are already the authority,
and that makes me quite sick.
A lot of Western theories have nothing to do with E-C or C-E translation,
so why can't they do a bit of thinking themselves??

I hate it when my words are banned because it doesn't fit with their stupid definitions..
I don't like to say "so and so said this and that", unless so and so is admirable and trustworthy..

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I am being so negative above.
BUT I also realize that I am only seeing one face of any persons in most occasions.
It's hard to meet a person that isn't better than me in one sense or another.
I only have to explore. And I come to learn that, every one is special in his/her own way.

But the faces I usually met are not.
They are stubborn, stupid and shallow, or too deep that I don't know what they're truly thinking.
They have looks that tell they are pretending. And I don't know why that has to be the way.
It is sad that you can't be who you really are.
It's such a pity.

That's why close friends are so precious.
You don't need to pretend.
I lost a dozen. I gained one. I hope I can gain more.
I don't lose them. This is just how it is.
I think that's the dynamics of friendship. It changes with time.

I think the way to live is easy in principle.
You place yourself in a position to make as much close friends as possible.
The closest of the close is what makes living the most wonderful experience.

But in practice?

When nobody is close, one suffers. Suffer a good portion of time.
I don't believe in God. God is in the farthest place of the Heaven.
I am sorry for him. Nobody is close to him.
People love him, maybe, yet he is lonely.

And how can you be happy when you're lonely??