Where comes the confusion?

Probably it is from the many things that I ain't - yet I believe I am capable of - doing.
It is going to take time. It's not like I don't know what and where I am at.
Luckily, I still have some money from my MPhil days to support myself against
my already-below-sea-level opinions about my present self.
As the saying goes, beggars can't be choosers..... Fine, it hasn't reached the point yet.....

The pressure is on. Being jobless is no fun.
Yet picking up a job that hinders my so-called progress is just not something intelligent to do.
I'm on a mission. Stay calm, and the current choice will be the right one.

Emotions aren't something easy to handle, you know.