7x24

How can one not be gloomy if one is preoccupied with something despicable? I wouldn't say I'm occupied, because I'm not, but I'm preoccupied, mentally, 7x24, which makes me feel so bad..

I really didn't know the correct way to appreciate my boss.. he's not really that bad, but I simply couldn't think of one single sentence that can be used as praise.. The same is true of me.. Fat Fai must be "something".. He can withstand such a pressure for 5 years, and can actually feel happy about that.. I admire the way he worked like an adult, but I really couldn't say a word about his being a human.. The point is, once you understand what human is all about, you would eliminate the vast majorities of jobs that are currently available..

I actually think about being ar Q today.. I suddenly feel like, if I admit I am no more than an animal with two hands and two feet, everything becomes justifiable.. I need food, I need shelter, I need to sleep, I may need to find mates.. and what else? hm.. I need a playground I suppose, for me to fly high and run fast..

But even though it becomes justifiable, it is actually an insult towards animals.. because they are more "human" than "machines"..

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I'm actually in quite a good mood today.. I plot 2 graphs with some thinking at least, go to rent a movie, and then glance through the books in bookshop like I've never seen any books before.. Then, I borrowed two books about translation, so you see that I'm serious.. but the authors are also very serious to suggest that HK has essentially no publishers interested in printing some more "human" translated works.. so, I really don't know.. I just regard it as an intensive language programme, so that I can use the skills elsewhere later..

you may say, translation should be and will be done by machines in the future, so translators are nothing more than machines.. This question is perfectly valid, I really didn't have any answers for it yet..

but interests are what distinguish one from machines.. if one is happy being a machine, go for it, otherwise, never ever.. well, maybe once per lifetime.. never make the same mistake twice when you still have choices..