You must be kidding..

I want no part of computer science.. and I just can't indeed.. how can I, knowing nothing about algorithms, be a PhD?? I am hopeless in thinking the most elegant solution, which I think is what computer "science" really about, to qualify as a science.. otherwise, it is indeed, an engineering degree..

what can I tell Dr. Szeto?? for the undeserved comments that I never hear in person??

I wanna use the other side of my brain.. otherwise, I am like a half person.. incomplete.. to use the words from linear algebra, I wanna span the whole space.. Life should be a superposition of left and right.. rational and irrational..

and now, my irrational side wins by a large percentage, unlike the old days.. I am filled with emotions that wouldn't settle down until I can swim like a fish in water for a year or two..

then, I would like to settle in some kind of "business".. but I need to swim first.. I am longing to it.. I need freedom..

Where's my letter of acceptance??!! I am hoping for the better, but the better seems never come..

I really wanna shout at this moment.....

Please let the swim begin this September!!

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okay, my tone is a little bit scary above.. and may upset my dear readers (however few in number)..

anyway, I guess, I would be in such stormy state the next few months.. please bear with me for a while..

I know, shouting is easy, and I hate shouting.. and I'm sure Mr. IDOL hates shouting too.. may I have his wit, his calm and his charm??

Today's actually a good day.. so why ruin your mood because of the future that you can't control??

but living through uncertainty is really very difficult and tiring..